Below are the 16 most recent journal entries recorded in xdaveganx's LiveJournal:

Friday, April 21st, 2006
10:39 pm	My heart is still very much shattered. Sometimes, things get a little hazy Sometimes, I think I'm just a little crazy I don't even know my own name Soon all of me will go up in flames Wearing scars, on my arms and in my eyes Are you friends or enemies in disguise So hard, when everything just runs against me Jealous words, turn into a love/hate frenzy Won't someone, lend me a helping hand Time is up, to the time thats left undone Time to grab my hat, grab my coat, I gotta load my gun Silly things always always are the ones that turn out worst And it seams The ones that love you always hurt you the most Won't someone, please understand Won't someone, lend me a helping hand Won't someone, please take the time to think That your actions and words They don't always say what they mean Since I was a child, I used to dream of many things Superstars, the bizzare, kings and their pretty queens Now it seems, I need a shot, a drink to jog my thoughts Why does this happen all the time Is ti, is it just because Because no-one will understand Won't someone, lend me a helping hand Won't someone, take the time to think That your actions and words They don't always say what they mean. I havent spoken to her in 4 days. Its alot easier this way but the last thing i really heard from her was she was on her way home from being out the entire day with some dude so i guess shes moving on. Fuck her. Fuck her bullshit sincerity. Fuck the way she treats people. She has repeatedly said the most horrible things about ALL of her friends. She is a joke and i hope she fucking rots in hell. Current Mood: irate Current Music: screaming jets - helping hand (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 9th, 2006
7:30 pm	WHAT FUCKING FRIENDS ARE YOU? YOU ARE ALL GOING TO REGRET THIS. Natalija stefanovic i fucking promise your gonna regret this. Your gonna regret throwing me away like a piece of shit. Your going to feel the pain im feeling. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:44 am	H20 - Guilty by association is the only thing that got me out of bed this morning. Fuck shit doodle wank. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Toe to Toe/25 ta life (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 6th, 2006
8:50 pm	You Should Of Ran for Days You Embrace You Betray What’s Left to Say You’re Set to Shame But When You Ran You Tripped and Fell On a Path That Led You Straight To Hell! This Is the Salt in Your Wounds This Is Why I Told You So If You Knew What I Know Would You Move Like You Do With Malicious Discontent Yeah! What about My Pain to Destroy But Did You Have a Reason Why Here's to Lowering Caskets of Old Friends Choice They Got To Gloat Above the New Day With The Death of It All Then (Start Over!) Here's To Burying Hatchets with Those Who You Never Call Your Friends Above The New Day with the Death of It All Then (Start Over!) Can You Breath in Reach and Then Let It Out The Evil Inside I See The New World Tonight! With Every Venomous Move I Will Suck You Up and Spit You Get Out Of My Life Get Out Of My Sight! You Let Yourself Get Carried Away Don’t Act like you’re Ashamed You Let Yourself Get Carried Away By your Hand Now Accept the Blame You Let Yourself Get Carried Away Bury This One You Won’t Waste And now it’s Time to See What You Don't Mean To Me I never want to see you again. (Comment on this)
Monday, March 27th, 2006
12:38 pm	HIM Waiting 8 years was definitely worth it. Im not gonna crap on about how amazing and emotional it was because everyone who knows me will know how much i would have enjoyed it. If you want a soppy teenybopper blog, Find an entry by one of the 1000 frothing females there lastnight. (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 16th, 2006
11:28 am	New mx boots Walking in new boots has always sucked. Right now i have fucking killer cramps in my right foot but hey, its worth it. They're rather nice boots. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 6th, 2006
7:38 pm	If i shot every wanker, faggot and moron in the face, Thered only be me and terry and nat left. True story. If only they knew. hahahaha (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 5th, 2006
7:55 pm	So apparently im fucked for having an opinion on something that pisses me off. Let me get this straight. The complete and utter sausage fest you call hardcore shows now aday has nothing to do with fucking someone up. I go to shows to have fun so if at the next show you little morons want to get all crew on me go ahead, but do it when a band you have no respect for is playing. Dont dare cheap shot me, Cheap shots are weak and i will actually laugh in your face. Dont get all weak on me and do the whole 20 on to 1 thing because again, i will laugh in your fucking face. Having an msn name saying "VEGAN DAVE AND TERRY EDGE RIP YOUR BOTH FUCKED" does not scare me, it just further proves that you are so intent on coming off as a tough guy before a nice one. I tried to be nice to you. You got up your own ass and turned into a moron. When you were in mxs you were a modest, nice kid. Like most other people who are okay at the start, you turned into a dose. Im not interested in your testosterone fueled bullshit. Your just an angsty little teenager, ive been there too man. Threatening everyone over the net and acting 10 times better than the next person. I forgive you for being a hormonal teenager, i dont however forgive you for treating me like shit as soon as people got into bear trap. Ive seen you and your mates cheapshot kids all over the place because they accidently hit you in a pit at a show, But when you do it to them they smile and laugh because thats just what happens. RIP me and terry? R.I.P hardcore in melbourne. The hordes of people like you have absolutley fucking ruined EVERYTHING it used to be about. The decline of hardcore isnt because of the fakes and trend followers cos they come and go to quick to do any damage. The decline is because of you morons. You complain about the lack of kids at shows, but pay out on any new kids who show up. I hope after you and your mates jump me you feel it was worth it because you'll just be proving to everyone that what ive said is right and you are all egotistical faggots who cant handle truth and being told how completely fucking gay you are. Have fun reading this Tim and whoever else happens to read it. I tried to be a mate and i was only ever nice to you. Your threatening me because i resent you for being a cunt to me. Thats fine buddy. P.s - nice rat tail, which hairdresser in springvale gave you that? Current Mood: amused Current Music: sworn enemy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 4th, 2006
7:41 pm	Your really a pussy. Im going to prove this when i see you next. Even your friends will laugh when ive reduced such a "tough cunt" to tears. And as for your lastband, the singer breaks edge because his edge band broke up? Fucking christ what a joke. Your a 17 year old elitist piece of shit who writes off everyone who doesnt have a name in the "scene" or who doesnt go and beat off over you and your faggot bands music. Its funny how much of a big deal you make over new jacks when your a new jack too. Your 17 and i never even saw you or your posse of clowns at shows until you started edge bands who sucked anyway. You write off dudes who are "fashioncore" yet, conform to every fucking trend in the scene. 5150, being "gangster" You hang off the likes of people who's parents own the record labels they claim to own. No wonder your such a fucking senseless pack of morons. Pull your fucking wanky faggot cocks out of your wanky faggot idols assholes and you will realise, there shit does stink. Who the fuck on earth would want to show upto hardcore shows when there are faggots like you ruining the scene every single week. Sick band you got there fuckwit, what label are you dickheads signed to again? Grow some fucking pubes and get a fucking clue because until then, you are just a pack of little fucking spoon fed bitches. You all live in rich suburbs. Your only into hardcore because you can afford to. Fuck you all. (15 Comments |Comment on this)
3:51 pm	Me and my new buddy. Well, its been about 8 months since sparky got put down. Went out to rspca in pearcedale and came back with rocket (rocky). He's one year old and was a severely malnourished stray found in mornington. Heres two pics of the beautiful little guy for you. Heres a pic of him eating his first meal. And heres the beautiful guy himself. I saw him and fell in love with him. Hes such a good natured dog. Me and rocky are gonna hang out tonight and watch movies, and im gonna take him for a walk later and introduce him to the neighbourhood. Current Mood: happy Current Music: Rocky licking his slobber chops and trying to kiss me (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006
8:37 pm	Freestyle mx...record collection and stuff. Ill start with work first. Im being "promoted" sort of from sunny department to the warehouse as forklift driver and stockpicker which is wicked. 7 till 5 5 days a week with plenty of overtime available. Heaps siked on that $$$$$$ I was gonna take a photo of my favourite toy ever but the batterys died so that will have to wait. Now, whether some of you know or not, i used to ride motocross pretty flatout. Pretty much every weekend for 2 years or so. I have been thinking for a long long long time about going back to it (a stack ended it for a bit). A mate at work is a sponsored rider for frankston motorcycles and yamaha. He has basically said that if i want to start riding again, i can ride with him every weekend at his own track in langwarrin and get my groove back and then he'll slowly ease me back into jumping. Id be aiming for a sponsorship. Not to make a living but just something to do cos lets face it, I dont have all that many hobbies atm. I know alot of you are probably going ah well hes just gonna maul himself again but no, i am gonna buy the neccesary safety gear (helmet, boots, gloves, jersey/shorts and so on) BEFORE i buy a bike. Im gonna do this slowly over the next few weeks maybe months so that when i do buy a bike, i have all the gear to wear when i go out. I used to replace proper riding boots with blundstones and bmx shin and knee guards. This didnt work at all. Boots will prevent ankle breaks 100%. And knee guards will save me alot of skin. Ive never been a fan of proper racing leathers and ive always bought shorts and tailored them to suit my needs. That was because i was a poor little fag who couldnt afford proper padded ones. Now that i have a well paying job i can. so over the new little while im going to be doing that. I think, as dangerous as it is you never forget these sort of things and i never DIDNT smile when i was on a bike, even when i came off them. My mum fucking hated me riding and she only ever watched me once and swore never to again. And im pretty sure Nat will hate seeing me ride, if she ever comes and watches. My aims are though: To buy a car (manual, station wagon AND if possible dual fuel). To buy a proper bike trailer (one that can be folded out into a workshop if i need to do on the spot repairs). Riding gear: which im going to start this weekend. And last but not least, A bike. I want to buy a yz250 two stroke, built for freestyle. My mates dad modifys bikes for freestyle riders to there specs (weight, height and whatnot) so i will most probably have the most appropriate bike for what im going to be doing. Im not fussed on the year model as long as it isnt older than 2001. Theyve already released the 2007 model so i'll most probably buy a 03/04 model. Most of you probably dont give a fuck but i used to love riding and deep down i still do so im gonna be getting back into it extremely heavily. I no longer have hockey holding me back and im not getting any younger so im not gonna be wasting alot of time getting my groove back. Ill hopefully be able to one day post pictures of me doing extremely high jumps for you to all gawk at and say "I read this dudes journal before he turned pro" Im only doing it for fun. Turning something into a job that you love makes it serious. I dont want to have to take riding so seriously. Anyway, i hope you enjoy my picture of my record collection and i hope you enjoy reading about my plans for this year. Dave XXX Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Stronghold - step back (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
5:04 pm	Having a job is proving to be really really good. Today me and sengi unloaded a 40 foot shipping container and i got to do most of the forklift driving which goes down as training time. I want to get onto a stock picker again real soon though, there heaps fun. Its scarey as shit though when your moving around 25 feet up with a pallet of stock with you and when you stop you shake and sway around a bit. I sure as fuck dont want to see if those harnasses work anytime soon. Ive gotta start early tommorow and pack som orders because were busy as hell this time of your apparently. Theres some big ass convention on in sydney this time every year and alot of orders come from new customers from that convention so it gets hectic. Those orders ontop of the 50-60 general orders and all the department store orders makes alot of work. Tara got the job and she starts on monday so it should be cool. Ive never had a job with a friend before really. Other stuffs going well. I got the think i care self titled lp, sick of it all - call to arms and mindsnare hanged hoked wrists slit. Im waiting on a zombie apocolypse 7" but its not looking good cos the dudes ebay feedback is shitty and its been more than 10 days so thats fucked. Earth crisis - all out war 7" would make me happy. Ive got heaps of time to get them i spose. I bought blooddusters 7" with the track i wanna do it with a donna. Its hand numbered on white vinyl but i dunno whether its meant to be played at 33 or 45. sounds right both speeds. anyway ill update again when ive got more than just music and work to talk about. Also goodluck to my girl with her first week of uni. Dave Current Mood: content Current Music: Slumlords (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 26th, 2006
9:14 pm	Ive always loved seeing sense of purpose play due to there intensley amazing live sets. There the most tight knit bunch of dudes and im gonna fucking well miss seeing them. They were one of the only bands left who were any good. They were one of the only bands left who actually gave a fuck and played good music and sang about problems that affect everyone (not just edge and veganism). As much as i respect bands who do sing about that stuff, more politically based lyrics hit harder. I had tears in my eyes when i left. Craig cried and most of sense of purpose cried at the end. In name and blood played a fucking top shot set. Fucking amazing stuff as per usual. The dead walk, well fuck what can i say. They covered beastie boys, fake blood, jason voorhes mask, gardening gloves. It was fucking hectic. Procedure 286 as per usual followed through. One of the first local hardcore bands i saw was procedure 286 (there close to my area) at a show at chelsea town hall when i was about 15. Or maybe it was coffee house, whenever it was i was young. They've always been a band who have played well no matter what or no matter where. The venue, arthouse, in a community hall or whatever theyve always delivered. Go for broke opened and played a funny set as per usual. I fucking love that band. Bunch of crazy crazy fuckers. Sense of purpose wound things up. I can safely say it is the best ive ever seen them play. Sense of purpose covering minor threat? It doesnt get much better than that unless of course minor threat came and played it. Which im not counting on. Ever. I had an awsome time watching them. Its always the shows like that, that are free from the typical scene bullshit. Not alot got at me yesterday except the weather and missing the tram stop because of the weather. I got to see franca and have a chat about the usual shit with her and also got to see and chill with duane the whole show which was awsome. Hes a real nice dude. Other than that, ive been working alot...I think this paycheck will be for 70 to 80 hours or something. Im really enjoying working there. Theyve agreed to let me train and do my forklift and lh (stock picker) licence test there. So i will be up a notch on the proverbial food chain. There are only 2 people licenced to use the stock pickers who work in sunglasses and there always busy doing stuff for people upstairs and doing stocktake in the warehouse so id be a fairly valuable employee as id be free most of the time to go get stock we need instead of waiting as long as we do. Everything else such as familly, Things with Nat and whatnot is going well. Im buying a new puppy soon. It will be good to have a companion again. I miss sparky like no one would beleive. Im doing a small picture post soon (one picture). Soon as in 5 minutes. so Check back if you want to see it. Dave (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 13th, 2006
7:56 pm	Vinyl list This is a list of records im bidding on through ebay. If anyone has a copy they'd like to sell me please comment so we can sort something out. Misfits - die die my darling 12" Agnostic front - Porvida 7" Sheer terror - live 7" Poison idea - Filth kick 7" Chain of strentgh - One thing 12" Snapcase - Lookinglasself 12" Earth crisis - Gommorahs season ends 12" Lp Im also looking for these: Think i care: Mongrel (10") Riff Raff - lowlifer (7") If you have ANY of those and are looking to part with them let me know, I will pay a good price and if you have more than one copy of anything and its limited coloured then i will also buy them if you are selling. Cheerios. Current Mood: dorky Current Music: Taking sides (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 12th, 2006
5:49 pm	There is a war. The Unseen Holocaust continues. Indigenous people in Hawaii, Central and South America, Austrialia, the United States, and around the globe are being robbed of their lands, their cultures, and their lives. The United States takes a predominant role in this destruction, as its racist government and economy capitalize off the resources of people with less power. This is a Weapon. To make people in priviledged positions in this country aware of our responsibility for the oppression of indigenious people. To become allies to organizations such as Ka Lahui Hawaii and AIM (American Indian Movement) that are fighting very hard for their survival. To stop the Unseen Holocaust... There is a War. One out of every four women are raped. Among those numbers are our sisters, mothers, and friends. This is a weapon. To teach men to unlearn the lessons we are taught: that women are objects to be acted upon and dominated. To teach men to channel our rage from our Broken Foundations into something useful instead of something destructive and deadly. To bring real justice in cases of rape and to make the streets safe for our sisters... There is a War. The violent attacks on gays continue. In Colorado, legislation has been passed which permits explicitly homophobix hiring practices. Same sex marriages are still not recognized. This is a weapon. To demonstrate to heterosexuals that gayness is natural and beautiful and that it is not a threat to their existence. To make being openly gay safe and to make the pain of the closet part of a mystical past... There is a War. Animals and the Earth are still thought of as resources for humans to use in any way we choose. Millions of animals are tortured and killed each year for food, clothing, and research. The clear cutting of forests destroys thousands of species of life that are rare, beautiful, and centuries old. This is a Weapon. To bring the New Ethic into fruition. To demonstrate to mainstream environmentalists that we must save the Earth and animals not only so we will have nice things to look at, but because these beings have their own inherent value. To illustrate that, in the context of the industrialized nations, the use of animals for food, clothing, and product research is unnecessary and it is therefore unjust. To bring the Earth and animals Deliverance from destruction. This is a Weapon, not only to destroy all forms of oppression, but also to celebrate the beauty of all our cultures, races, sexualities, genders, religions, species. This is a weapon to strike down every demon, to end every form of oppression, to bring Gomorrah's Season to an End by any means necessary. By tomorrow. Now. One generation will break the chains. - Earth Crisis Thanks to chris for this. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
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